What do i do? (life update pt3)

I'm backkkk....The wife found out so he removed me on everything. I liked him tho :,(  (not actually like like him; more like i like how he made me feel) he made me feel special. I know he was probably lying about all the stuff he said to me (stuff like he loves me etc) but i liked it. My previous bf made me feel loved and i messed it up. I just want to be loved like ik my family loves me and my friends care about me but its not the same. and Ik i shouldn't put as much emphasis/prioritize/revolve everything around romantic relationships since platonic/familial relationships are just as important but i can't help it. I just want someone to love me and care about me and actually mean it. I want them to mean it. I'm now talking to a new guy but he just wants to hook up. He isn't looking for a relationship. At least he tells me what i want to hear (when he's not asking for nudes/videos). He's likee 27/30 can't remember. I'm gonna meet up with him on monday. I'm #nervous but excited.