never been kissed

What is it about me that makes everyone so disgusted to be around me? I just want to be loved.

I am almost 16 and I have had one boyfriend my entire life, whom is now gay. Other people my age have practically had sex by now and im not saying I want that.. I just want the chance. I want people to love me the way i love them. I am sick of falling in love at first sight, craving their attention before we've ever even spoken, already knowing everything about them before we have even met. I want to be kissed, with passion and love. I want love. I need love.