just a little update on me. my hair is shorter than before and no more red highlights! im so close to getting a new room, (possibly 2 bc my dads moving and my mom is cleaning an old room for me) i am back with my old friend, S. shes great and we good now. i dropped a friend that i made in 7th grade because her mood honestly dimmed mine and shes just an energy sucker. this year i go to 8th grade! i hope it goes well but im nervous since im an honor student now so im probably going to be expected more of me. also im nervous because boys. just boys. not because i have a crush on them just because their boys, yk? their so cocky and rude and they think they deserve the world. not all, but most, atleast in my school. but i try to not focus on it rn. i have a decent amount of friends, online and rl. i hope im not paired with assholes next year, atleast not sitting next to one. i rlly hope i dont get into conflict either, fights arent my thing, especially physically. im trying to explore more music. trying to heal. but its so difficult when im always angry. but im just 13. so its normal, right? or idk. idk anymore. im trying to get into poetry more. its so nice. i started to realize i always give and give in friendships my whole life. i give so much that they dont want it, but when i start to take it back, they try to get more? the energy sucker, Y is trying to start convos with me after she ghosted me and blocked me. and in the past, people would want to be my friend again after they fucked me over. maybe its them wanting my attention again, or its me whos confused whether they want it or not. well, i could rant forever, but ill do that on another blog whenever it comes to me. i hope everyone who reads this has a good day, or night. <3
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