scared to make the first move

so last semester i was in this art class with a couple people and two other people in the class i was kinda friends with but we never hung out outside of that class. the first day i walk in and this (hot) trans woman comes over to me and says, "hey, you're trans right?" and obv i said yeah and she said, "come sit with us, we are the other gay and trans people" (paraphrased) and its just her and this other guy who i was following on insta before this class because he was an artist who was going to go to the same college as me so i sit with them and every class from that point on we sit next to each other. we learn that me and the trans woman are from the same area and we bond over that and the trans experience and a couple other things but we didnt talk too often because we only had to come in on critique days. i never got any sort of contact info from her but im pretty sure her and the other guy hung out after classes. 


n e ways, recently i was talking about my current lack of a love life with my two besties and i mention this hot trans woman and our interactions, and they said that she was defintely flirting with me (they said, and i quote, "she wanted to fuck you, if a woman picks you out of a class and invites you to sit with you, she wants you"). i am autistic so if she was actually laying that down on me i did not recieve the message until this moment. after that i was in denial about her flirting with me mostly because i don't see myself as fuckable and i dont like to assume women want me and then i make them uncomfortable because as a trans man i never want to do that to a woman. 


i also mention that i have the guy's insta and they tell me that i should ask him if he has her contact. i attempted to find her myself first but no luck. i still haven't asked him because im scared of being seen as creepy and maybe my friends misread the situation. i know that i should take the chance while i can, but im scared and i am really bad at talking to people in general. idk if im looking for advice or encouragement but your mans really needs to lock someone down, esp before halloween bc my besties said that im not allowed to join their couples costumes (lmao). 


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