Heyyy, Idk how to use this

Heyyy, so, Im new here end idk how to use this lol

I maybe will just write about… something? 

I hope it can get better with time, and I hope I continue with this enough to see it improve

So, I started this because I want somewhere where there are people like me :D 

I feel really alone irl and I want to meet some people with the same interests and mind set as me, so… here I am :3

Idk what to talk about now, maybe I can write about how I feel, it can be a good idea.

So, lately I feel like living is very complicated, like, VERY much complicated.

My great grandma (104 years [omg]) is almost dying, that’s what the doctors said, and it’s not something I didn’t know. It was obvios, just the path of life, something My Chemical Romance has thought me for the last 2 years that I know them (I love you The Black parade). But it still feels wrong, I know we are all gonna die and that it is fine, my grandpa died 2 years ago and my grandma died too, but it keeps being weird. I fell like I don’t deserve feeling bad, I don’t deserve crying or being sad.

I’m just not worth it.

And I feel even more like this because I don’t have anyone to talk about it, I don’t want to worry my friends and not to even think about my family. 

I have always been alone but right now it’s really hurting.

I just hope someone reads this and thinks “omg same” or something like that, lol. Idk

I wanna make friends, but not because you saw this sad post and just felt bad about me. I have great things to give and I’m also a great friend. So, idk. It sounds like I’m begging you to be my friend.

I don’t even know what this is, sorry if it’s weird.

Love you 💕

And always carry on 🖤

-Mai