Positive rant 🫶

I feel too awkward to directly tell this to the friend in particular who we’ll call S, but i rlly fucking love them, like i’m so glad i ever met them so i’m gonna be ranting ab them, sort of an appreciation post?

I met S in 6th grade, when i started developing a small crush on him, which was because he was the one of the very few guys our grade who treated the girls like actual people and not like some inferior being ☠️

Basically my friend had a crush on S, and i didn’t want to hurt her feeling so i didn’t pull any moves on him or anything, but i didn’t want to stop talking to him, because it was my first school year after isolation and covid and online and stuff, (at the time i was very obsessed with anime 😭) it was nice to have a friend whom i can talk to about my interests and stuff because he was also a big fan, none of my main friend group liked anime that much so it was cool to be able to geek out with him about the stuff. Often times we’d walk together in the halls and just talk about stuff like anime. Then we were assigned Bus seats right across each other so we got even closer, eventually i started sitting next to him after a few kids would’ve gotten off and there was free space beside him. He was so sweet to me, and after some time i started to rant to him about my random friendship drama and things like that and he was always a very good listener, then i started opening up to him about my past trauma and things like that, and he was still very very sweet about it, in fact i was so happy, i finally had a person in real life to talk to about my personal problems.

In fact i have a distinct memory, one time at school, at the end of the day i had somehow managed to get slightly high on sniffing glue (crazy, ik ☠️) and i was just rlly loose, and bc if it i started telling him random stuff and lightheartedly he was like “bro wtf are you ok why r you so emo” i just laughed but then he was like “no but fr tho are you ok? I’ll be your personal therapist you can tell me” AND WHEN I TELL YOU I WANTED TO LITERALLY CRY AT THOSE WORDS. It sounds dumb but i rlly needed to hear that someone would be there to listen to me. So when we got on the bus we sat beside eachother and i poured my heart out to him, telling him all the shit weighing on my mind and he simply listened, he tried giving me some advice on small things (btw his advice is amazing bro is literally a life saver) and he was just way more mature than any other guy i met and when he was getting off i asked for a hug 🥹, he was def kinda hesitant but he said ok anyway, prob bc i was alr tearing up.

Towards the end of that school year he told me he had known i had a crush  on him but never said anything because he didn’t want to embarrass me (A LITERALLY ANGEL🫶🫶🫶)

I’m going into 8th grade from september and i’m so glad i met S, he’s seriously been the best thing to ever happen to me, from being able to geek out with him, to spilling tea and drama, to just venting. I’m sad i wont be able to see him when i go to my new school, but we’ll still be able to hang out outside of school. And this boy is the only reason i’ve been hanging on to the shattered mental health istg i love him so much (platonically). 

If i don’t stay friend with him for years to come i’m gonna jump off a bridge 🧍‍♀️