Am I in the wrong? (Rant/vent)

Me and my boyfriend have been dating since 03/03/23 

And I deeply love him. But he's done things that make me sick and I don't know what to do 

I wish he could just treat me like a human.… I feel like I am nothing more then a friend with benefits I am an object in his eyes. He doesn't respect me he breaks my boundaries so many times I can't fucking count my boundaries arnt even like huge it's all just "don't make fun of me even if it's a joke" and " don't say u want to break up as a joke" that's it. But no matter how many times I sit there and talk to him genuinely talk to him abt why it's upseting he forgets it all two days later and I end up crying but I constantly tell myself he didn't mean it he's just a kid(he's a year from being an adult) he doesn't mean anything he doesn't know better. But he's refused to learn he acts like he will but he never does I can't take this anymore I feel sick when he says it and another thing that he does is mention me crying in a mall food court because I HAVE FUCKING SOCIAL ANXIETY AND HAVE A HARD TIME ORDERING FOR MYSELF. and to top it off him and the cashier made fun of my last name while I was crying I hat this he mentions it like it was funny for me to I was traumatized and now i feel I want to vomit when he talked abt it.