shit im in love with him

its fucking 12.41 am and i havent seen him in weeks and he doesnt fucking know who kafka is, or mikey way and it didnt work out last time how do i know he'll take me back or if i can even handle dating and all my friends hate him but theyve never met him, plus half of them hate my oldest friend too they cant be a good judge of taste and i just spent fucking half an hour finding every single song hes ever recomended to me 

what do i do

hes the nicest fucking person ive ever met, the only one who fucking understands music like i do how its my entire fucking life, yet we cant have a fucking conversation