Losing hope on getting T

My mom has been trying to arrange me getting progress on even having access to HRT since the first of the month and oh boy!! Everywhere is fully booked.

Has been for weeks and she’s not getting any calls back from those she has talked to. Some place is supposed to be sending forms that she’ll have to fill out to see if I’d even be eligible or that if they’d accept me but they haven’t come in the mail yet. Even then they’d see me on the 25th of god damn September. Yeah it’s progress but it really doesn’t feel like it

Genuinely feels soul crushing, especially since it seems like no one else gives a shit. Zero responses, no clear answers, WOWIE!! I’m really on a timer here too, getting somewhere some semblance of anything closer to getting testosterone before the 25th of August because that’s when the ban on hormone replacement therapy goes through here in Missouri and it won’t be lifted until 2027. Actually fucking ridiculous.

By that point I’d be better being dead! 

I want to leave this stupid country and this state ASAP, they don’t care for the safety of their citizens and it really shows. Thanks USA, very cool! Definitely a place that cares about the well-being of their people! 

My parents hold the fact that “Oh the US is better than most countries” over my head but that doesn’t mean it’s GOOD. It sucks here like everywhere else, yes we have privileges here but god. You know when you feel like you’re not welcome and that’s EXACTLY how I’m feeling in this hellscape.

So yeah that’s how things are going for me as of late. Rather fun <— SARCA