A Beautiful Sky and Her Smile Reminds Me I’m Alive.

I just wanted to share a few things about me. One thing you must know about me is knowing about her. 

 Shay. My beautiful wife. You must also know about my love for photography and writing and reading. How much me and her have bonded over trains and the beauty of life. Just a beautiful sky and a beautiful girl, that’s all i’ll ever need.❦ᨎ. 

  You might think reading this is pointless but I think writing it is far from that. For the reason that she will read this. She will smile, and that’s my goal. Always will be. Along with the fact that I will also smile when I re-read this myself. I've learned something. It’s okay that I have a problem with memory. Not much but it bothers me, what comfort a me is one thing. That one thing is, I’ll always remember is how much she’s been here and how much I've fallen so deep in love. If you’re going through something. And you have no one? Im here! Because she taught me that it’s not hard to stay. Everyone in my past made it seem as it was my fault. My fault that I have these mental issues, and “It drives them away”. She said these words that I will NEVER forget, and as I said, Im forgetful so that’s big. 

  “Obviously what you need is somebody to love you. And it’s me. I’ll never stop.” 

  Yes, that’s what I needed, and I cried. I hated to admit it. She was and still is right. I’ll never thank the universe enough for throwing me this angel. I love you shay. You make me whole heartedly happy. And that’s something little old me who- [TRIGGERWARNING] -did some bad things to her wrist, would never have thought would be something she’d feel. Nor did she think she’d even be here at 17. Thank you and I don’t want to say it’s all you because it wasn’t. You helped me become better at taking care of myself and i’m damn sure proud of myself. I love me. Yeah, I said it. And I am so glad to be alive. Phew.. never thought I’d say that on a blog. Heh. Well there’s my first introduction. I don’t think it’s bad, but to each their own. Everyone be safe! And i love you all, yes without knowing you. Because I believe it should be normalized to be f.cking nice until you’re given a reason to not. Sounds stupid right? Most think so. Well, host out! -Rek’Ziꨄ

(Oh yeah, I’m a host of a pretty great system, did i say that?)