The song Anti hero by taylor swift is justtttt

I don't even like Taylor swift that much but

That feeling like you're a monster or someone undeserving of being in society for being something not entirely unproblematic issss-

Like, you can't look in the mirror for fearing that you might not recognize yourself, or even worse than you will and discover that you were never really a person to begin with. You would rather blind yourself than come across that possibility 

You feel bad for your friends and family because they love you, they root for you and you get worried that they will be villainized by association

Being labeled problematic is something that can fully shut you off from the rest of the world, but it's also entirely human and natural, nobody is ever going to be perfect, nobody is ever going to live without making a single mistake or misunderstanding, nobody is ever going to be fully unproblematic.

I have so many more words about this sonnggggggg and how it makes me feeeeeelllll