Diary july 21 2023

Today we had to get ready for my dads Friends to come over. I didn’t even bother unfolding the couch bed last night and honestly it was more comfortable sleeping on the couch. Got woken up by my mom this time, weirdly early but luckily i managed to go back to sleep. I didn’t say gn to my gf last night and didn’t say gm this morning. It took her until like noon to say anything to me and it wasn’t even good morning :( it makes me so sad because i love her so much but every since she started that job i feel like ive just been so much less of a priority for her. I dont know what i want to do. I definitely want her to take my virginity I’ve decided that. Even if she doesn’t want to be together im pretty sure she finds me hot so i bet shed be willing to friends with benefits rail me at least. Whatever im sure she’s just busy. Anyway yeah soy dad’s friends came over and they brought a very adorable dog then after like two hours of talking we went to the beach for an hour and a half before going out to eat at a restaurant that was honestly just okay. I tried this banana pudding moonshine today and it was pretty good but I couldn’t have much it made my stomach hurt