i don't feel good physically n mentally (VENT TW ED)

last saturday my siblings had a bday party (they had to share bcz they're bdays r 6 days apart) and i already had to eat a hotdog and corn which i don't mind but there were also these potatoes i REALLY like and don't get to eat much. obviously i took a lot and they were so good i took seconds and ofc i took a ton more. my brother got a piñata bcz he turned 7 and wanted one and my dad bought A LOT of candy there were tons. ofc i love candy so i took some, i had my 2 back pockets of my jeans filled w candy like tootsie rolls, gum, hi-chew candies (they're jus really chewy candies), rockets (canadian rockets), etc. besides the gum i ate all of it that day and since i have a shit eating schedule (no breakfast, sometimes smt small for lunch or no lunch at all, dinner which most the time i don't finish or eat, and like a bag of popcorn at night) i felt like i was gonna throw up. but what i didn't know was that night was gonna ruin my week. the next 2 days my mom got called into work and i would babysit my brother from 2:30 to 7 when my dad came home. this one pasta in my family is my hyperfixation meal (i have adhd so i get them) and i made it like twice that day i made A LOT and ate it all but that day wasn't so bad. tuesday i made more pasta, and a ton of other food along with at night having a whole bag of popcorn and pad thai instant noodles from costco at the same time drinking my probably 10th pop this week. i literally could not finish it. yesterday (wednesday) i got paid 60 and went to the mall w my friend. b4 we went we had mac n cheese. for myself, i got 2 big bags of takis, one little bag if takis, a lollipop, party size pack of pringles, and these bear cookies and there was a lot. i also got mcdonalds that day. i finished the little bag of takis that day along w starting on big bag, the lollipop, and i ate a few bear cookies and chips. today on the other hand, i finished the bag of takis, started the other one. i had more mcdonalds which my mom bought (i only get poutine [yes they have mcdonalds poutine in canada] and a drink so not that much) and then at night i made a ton of spaghetti which at this point i couldn't finish bcz i already was eating a ton this week. between mcdonalds (around 5) and when i made the spaghetti (around 10) i was also eating some takis and bear cookies. btw random time but ive probably left out some things i ate bcz ive ate a lot for this week and i know its bad (ill get into why after) but its uncontrollablly and i can't stop. anyway, after the spaghetti stuff i threw it out and even tho i didnt want that i still felt like eating snacks. i ate the rest of the takis, pringles, AND bear cookies. there was still a lot in them. when i tell you i can't sit up and properly breath without putting my stomach out too much it HURTS. i need to lay down. ive felt since tuesday im having an oncoming eating disorder whether it be bulimia or ill get to a point where i feel so guilty ill stop eating and ill get anorexia. im not saying i wjll get an eating disorder but it pretty much feels like i will considering my past with my eating scedule and what i do after i eat. i took a self assessment (which im not saying self diagnosis its js im curious) and it said im at high risks of bulimia. whenever i talk to my therapist next I'm going to talk to her about this because i feel so guilty i wanna cry but i can't help it. sorry this is so long i needed to tell sm1.