virtual diary 19/07/23

cw: mentions of blood

 19/07/23 

I woke up reasonably early this morning. everything was going normally until I went to the bathroom and noticed something really strange. I was bleeding! this was really odd to me because I only had a period 3 weeks ago and also started birth control 3 weeks ago. I was a little worried but as it turns out it's actually very normal to have irregular bleeding episodes when you first start taking birth control. it's not an actual period although it sort of feels like one. I have very mild cramps but no headache (my periods normally give me bad migraines) so I feel ok!

I noticed my hips were a little sore while walking to my social group, which is a symptom I normally get with periods. the group I go to on wednesdays is my favourite because its the one with the most people. its a group mostly for old people but all ages are welcome.

I spent most of my time at the group chatting with the old people who go there. I told them about how I got accepted into university and they were all happy for me. some of them have grandchildren close to my age so they probably see me as a grandchild hehe! one of them is an 80 year old man who just talks and talks and talks. he sometimes buys me gifts, like when my cat went missing he got me a cat plushie! today a lot of us had to yell at him to stop talking which was funny but it is nice to talk to him as he has no one to talk to at home.

I then went to the pharmacy to ask why I was experiencing bleeding and they pretty much said it's fine but if it lasts for weeks on end then that could be an issue. im feeling alright and the bleeding isn't continuous and is much lighter than a period so im sure im ok.

once I got home my new sofa had arrived! it feels really hard because its new. its like sitting on bricks. but im sure it'll soften up over time, like me when I meet someone new. my mum prepared lunch for me while I was gone which was nice of her.

I then went and had a little rest as thats what I do on my period. I know this isn't an actual period and just breakthrough bleeding but I still deserve to treat myself! I planned a trip to the town my university is in with one of my friends and I will also go on a tour of the university. if all goes well I'll be going with them on monday! im so excited as I haven't been there for many years and I honestly really miss it as there are so many lovely shops there.

I also spent a lot of time talking to my boyfriend. im not sure if it's the subliminal ive been listening to or the bleeding im experiencing but my jealousy of pregnant people has started to go down already. maybe its the realisation that all of this is caused by my star sign and I just need to accept that im a resentful envious stubborn scorpio. I cant change the day I was born but I can change the way I approach it, and I watched a ton of "scorpio slander" videos to help.

I also called my dad as I was planning something for his birthday which is in september (hes a virgo btw hehe) but he was in the pub with his friend and both were very drunk.

im now spending some time talking to my boyfriend and I am definitely gonna call him later!