Im tired.

lately, i've been feeling super overwhelmed and lost, like i can't keep going with my life. i'm tired of all these memories and people haunting me, and i wish i could just stop, but it's like i'm stuck on repeat. i don't want to think about her and all the crap she put me through, but it's like she's still messing with my head. I'm so hurt by everything that's been happening in my life.

i don't think i can handle college anymore; it's getting harder and harder. i can't focus, can't understand anything; my mind just wanders off into thoughts, memories, hallucinations, and daydreams. i'm so sick of feeling like this.

right now, all i can think about is ending it all and screwing everything. i've got the money, and it's just buying some pills, and I'll do it. I'm scared of hurting and deeply damaging my gf and family if i do it, but I just don't know what to do anymore. i'm tired, and it feels like my body and mind are rotting away in my room while my soul fades away. idk what to do.