sonder

a ramble 

Sometimes I sit for hours and wonder if other people think about others the way I do. Rereading old messages, replaying memories, wondering if I said the wrong thing or didn't say enough, wondering what literal strangers were thinking about me when they met me... It goes on obviously but the question I have is,  does everybody possess the forethought of sonder? Or is it a select few? do other people just... go on with their lives / days , not think of what could be going on in the other person's life? Are people worried about the way others are perceiving them while the others are worried about the way they are being perceived? does my ex think of me the way I think of  him? or am i simply a lost memory, something that just happened? Its mind-boggling really because you can't forsure know if you're talking to a sentient person that genuinely gives a shit or not. I've encountered so many people that seem inhuman to me because they lack sonder and sympathy, they literally only think about how situations could be affecting them and not the other person... Sometimes I believe that one theory about how there are two species of human on Earth, one set of them has a mind, body and soul, and the others have only the mind and body. Those ones, not possessing any empathy or components that the soul holds. That would make a lot of sense considering the types of people I have met... I wish people considered others the way they consider themselves.