virtual diary 17/07/23

 17/07/23 

I will only be doing virtual diaries on days where I actually do stuff. my weekend was boring and uneventful so thats why there weren't any over the weekend.

earlier I walked to the cafe down the road. it was sunny while I was walking there but once I got in and sat down it started to thunder very loudly and then it started to rain heavily. 10 minutes later it was just drizzle and after an hour the sun was out again!

I bought a ham and cheese toastie at the cafe. it was made by the newest and youngest volunteer and she was very nervous in case she didn't get it right but it was perfect!

after a couple of hours I walked home from the cafe. I then spent some time with my mum as I was feeling a little sad. I lost my cat a month ago and it's been really hard as I had him since I was 5 years old. we both feel the same and at least we have each other.

after that I spent some time relaxing. I mostly just played games, watched videos and talked to my boyfriend. I really wanna hear his voice again to hopefully I will call him tomorrow! my relationship with him has been kinda difficult lately as one of his friends is pregnant and im strangely feeling extremely jealous, especially as we've been together for far longer and we recently got engaged. I feel like missing my cat is also what's behind my baby fever. I really thought going on birth control would help but its been 2 weeks and nothing has improved so far.

hopefully we can reach some agreements and come up with something that will make us happy. we're long distance but we have met before.