some late night thoughtssss

welcome back to my blog! 

it's my second post :D i'm so happy i found spacehey. i wanted to rant to someone about my thoughts without having to actually talk to anyone, and writing in a diary is just talking to myself, so blogs are a perfect middle ground <3 so i'm gonna rant now!

today i was weirdly emotional and sentimental for no reason.  i wasn't even pms'ing.. just so random! i got overwhelmed at work and cried. i'm actually in a really happy place mentally these days, but today i just needed a good cry! 

i think something has been bothering me extra, and maybe this was a release? recently i've been thinking about the working class, and watching people give up their biggest dreams. when i was a kid, i was so worried about what dreams i had that i never realized that growing up means you'll have to see other adults having to ignore what they're passionate about in order to pay their bills. i saw a blog post on here about someone wanting to start a pop band, and i thought about how cute it is that people just start bands whenever they want. i'm sad that adults aren't able to do fun things like that more because they're too exhausted. every time i see an elderly person working a retail or food service job i feel sick. :( i just wish everyone could do what they wanted with the time that they have on earth. cuz yolo or whatever 

that was super depressing sorry. i promise i'm really in a good head space lol this has just been weighing on my mind and i wanted to free my brain of it.. wheeeeeeeeee!!!  that's the thought flying out of my brain as i type this. i hope anyone reading this does something fun or silly today that makes them happy, even if it's unproductive. 

 here's to hoping my next blog entry is a little more happy. maybe i'll do a what i ate in a day blog or a music rant or upload ootd pics. we'll see how i feel!! i'm going to sleep now . . . so sweet dreams !!!!