Rainy day

Roommate is sleeping. Storms outside. I wish it were fall weather though. Lots of crime on the news. Sad that my family won't help me get out of here. Wondering what am I gonna do and how am I gonna survive. Will i ever enjoy life again. I am thinking the best thing I can do is just pretend that everything is okay. Be completely delusional. One day it will happen. I can feel it. Just go through the motions and live in a fake fantasy. No one can stop me then.