sober arc: 1 week in

Although I still don't feel wonderful, I feel much better. I haven't thrown up for two days (I have gagged a little); yesterday my mom suggested trying to eat some watermelon...this is now one of the only things I am eating. Which is totally fine as it's a comfort. AND it hydrates me! In my last entry I mentioned watermelon scented body wash, bringing me back to being a little kid. Happy moments. Watermelon was my first favorite fruit, and now it's helping me again in different ways. It reminds me of a painting I'm doing, I'm not too sure if I want to share the WIP here. I think I'm going to add some watermelons...it'll be fitting. Yesterday I invited my friend Morgan over, I haven't seen her in probably two years so it was nice to just sit and talk. She bought us some taco bell, I was able to eat half a quesadilla, and almost half a burrito. It was really a lot, and it was good because I didn't hack it up. Morgan also told me my problem sounds pretty familiar in some people she knows. That sucks, but at the same time makes me feel so much less alone. I feel like for the next 2 months I won't be able to eat like a normal person, but as long as I can live off of some fruits (specifically my watermelon), yogurt, and cheese quesadillas, I will be good. I also have to avoid chocolate which is painful but very doable.

This has been one of my favorite songs for a while, when I need some help. It's more accurate now than ever.