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I have no friends here, and ive never had a relationship before. I have the social skills of a rock, and i feel like im gonna push anyone interested in me away. I never had any friends growing up, and the people in my life who claimed to be my friends backstabbed me constantly and treated me like an autistic lolcow. I've been falsely accused of planning a school shooting in high school, so I left that high school. I isolated myself with online high school, and then college rolled around. I realized how miserable I was almost immediately, and that void in my heart never left me despite making some friends in college. I quickly devolved from a troubled yet friendly guy into a full edgelord with a trench coat and waifu pillow. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm a waste anyway. I feel like I'm drowning in my own apathy and loneliness. I just want to be loved, but I accepted that it's never gonna happen. I gave up on myself long ago.
So lonely
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Ashley
We have a lot in common platonically. I mean, sans the school shooting accusation. Well, actually my school did accuse me of being schizophrenic because I made skit videos in high school and I played as different characters in those videos. It was retarded.
But we both like metal, film making, Duke Nukem, South Park, Beavis and Butthead, the list goes on and on. I tried listening to S.O.D a few weeks ago because they're mentioned all the time and I couldn't really get into them. I also make videos, maybe you will like the skits I make. https://videos.icum.to
Anyways, most people are boring carbon copies who all have the same opinions and interests, they aren't worth hanging out with. I made my peace with that. I have never fit in, never had a solid friend group, and when I really tried to make friends I couldn't relate at all to them, and vice versa. Maybe you can find one person who really clicks with you, but most people are disappointing, so you're not missing out. Maybe that's why you still feel that void. It could just be that school is draining, it made me a zombie of a person.
Also your film is really impressive, badass, and creative. You've accomplished far more than most people have in their lifetimes. We always measure success by money, but I don't care about that. Creativity is success to me, and you're far ahead of most people in that regard. Also I recognized the "most mysterious song on the internet" at the outro. Hope to see you make more, I've always wanted to create a similar action movie. I want to do a comedy movie sometime and hire actors. I have the idea but need to write the script. Maybe we can platonically collab some day. I would hire you to be a leading role in my movie, because you're genuinely a really good actor. I'm not kidding, I watched your whole movie and you're believable.