I've always been a busy person; I love drawing, I love music, I love crafts, I love collecting (ask me about my CDs/records). I've recently found myself in a time period where I can barely do either of those things. I just lost interest for a while I guess, not that I'll quit these things forever or anything, they're huge parts of my life and they're the only thing I know ! I'm just in that slump where I can't draw anything without scrapping it, I can't practice without getting pissed off, and I can't find stuff to make that'll keep my interest for more than 20 minutes. yaya textbook depression stuffs but I've been functioning just fine, I guess it gets me sometimes.
All I can do right now is be on my computer and listen to music... not too bad tbh but still I need to be busy. I guess it's that gifted kid guilt where if I'm not doing something constantly I feel horrible because I'm not being productive or improving on my skills.
I haven't been able to draw more than a headshot and when I do it looks all wonky and UGH !!! I just want to rip out my sketch pages. I can't paint, I can't draw, so what else do I do !?
Practicing my bass especially humbles me because My God if I can't play a song right immediately I freak out but I pull through either way, I just don't feel like I'm learning the "right" way. I feel like I'm learning kinda slowly compared to other people. Same thing with drums. Despite being a percussionist , I haven't really played a lot of drums. My teacher wanted to set me up to play drumset but if you read my prev posts you'd see how that turned out. Now I'm left with youtube tutorials and drumsticks. Nothing wrong with learning on YT btw (glares at bass)
This whole thing is seriously weighing me down :-( I love being an artist but damn is it tough sometimes...
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Hatch
Maybe you're getting burnt out a little?
The drawing thing is good, though. Your skills are improving to another level, where you just need to power through the stuff you want to scrap. If i were better at words I'm sure that'd sound super inspiring. Imagine I worded that real well.
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