my cat that i love to death

I LOVE CATS!! 

tonight i dreamed about receiving plenty of baby kittens, they were so so so cute and tiny and helpless little babies :((

i myself have a cat, but these days i don't see her often. she is allowed to go out at anytime and she always comes back home, it's been the same since foreveeeer. she is 13 now, and for a cat, it is kind if old. we let her do her own life outside since she's an animal, we don't want her to feel trapped, she's better off free! but sometimes i miss her sm... she was home 2 days ago but she hasn't returned home since. i see her outside, in the street were i live. hopefully she never goes faaar away. ofc i wouldn't mind if she did, she's a big girls and take care of herself, she has always been like that. but now that she is old , i am starting to feel worried... 

i've read on internet that when they feel like they are about to die, cats often run away or hide, because they don't want their humans to see them die. i don't want my cat to die. 

i have this cat since i was 4 years old. she is in all of my memories. she's always been there. i love her so much and i can't imagine that she won't be there anymore someday. she's like a mom, a big sister to me. but at the same time she is my little baby who i cherish. i am her and she is me. i need her. 

Minette i love you forever <3