im so tired

dear god living wit a bunch of white moderates rlly just puts a timer on how long you're allowed to be comfortable and happy because eventually one of em will say smth racist and every last one of those motherfuckers will remind you that they don't actually care about you at all. i have no genuine support in this house, i cannot trust any of these people bcus they will all turn around and treat me like an aggressive crazy bitch the second i call one of them out and disturb their precious comfort. they always have to turn it into a huge fight and make the whole conversation about how THEY'RE victimized bcus they're queer and disabled and a woman, they can't fucking stand that not everything is about them. i hate them so much, i cant believe i let myself think for a second that they might care about anything more than what affects them personally.