Family 1: my brother

I will try to describe my story with my family, only the important parts

mm My brother used to be a lawyer, he was murdered, I won't explain because I don't even know, I just remember that he was taller than me, medium build, he was a joker, I really love him very much. When he passed away I was 10 and 25, I didn't understand what happened until my mom came home crying, it was morning, since the day before he went out to party and after 12 he didn't answer calls After that, in the morning his friends told my mom that he was in the hospital, and well yes, the obvious happened. I miss living with him, it was fun having someone other than my parents at home, I was a little boy, so I thought 'how annoying', but I realized that it was normal, I don't know, a siblings relationship hehe.

Well, I cried a lot, his best friends told me many stories about him at his funeral, that cheered me up a bit, I realized that he always appreciated me more than I thought,  I was literally his adoration, that's so cute, I was his "princess".. in other circumstances it would bother me, but obviously he never knew that I am trans (I found out at 12 thinking I was gender fluid, then at 14 I realized I was a trans guy)

So yeah, he was the only one in my family who knew I was queer, at the time I thought I was a lesbian, he seemed fine with it, I'm sure he would actually support me, I wish I had died and not him.

Well, because he died, I had to act like someone older now, support my parents and know what to say and how to help them, they always told me that I was too mature for my age, now reading it, I realize it's true, it's ironic knowing that I'm currently trying to act more childish, maybe going back to those years where I didn't care about anything

My friends see me as a friend who is always funny and knows what to say at the right time, and... I am, I'm always there to support people, I have a savior complex I think... I don't care if I'm in the shit, if any of my friends feel bad I'll do whatever it takes to make them feel better, they are the best I currently have