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My stomach is a lot better today but still not better. I type this as I eat a little bit of noosa vanilla yogurt with some banana slices in it. Yesterday my birthday card from my grandma came in the mail. We share the same birthday, which is cute. She put 4 photos in with the card, all of me around the ages of 1-2. I started crying, especially at the one of me playing in the tub.
The first two days of this misery I was mostly in the shower. The hot water regulated my body and got rid of most of my symptoms. I made a playlist and I put Move Along by The All American Rejects on it. this song came out when I was older but the point is still the same. Hearing this song while laying crying in the tub with the aroma of artificial watermelon is a time machine to elementary school. I'd spend so much time playing in there, sha-baths (shower baths) and lots of Barbies and toys. Now I break down every time I hear this, especially in the shower and remember little me, and that I have to do this for her. I want better for her, and she will have it. I wish I could go back but I'm happy I can't.
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jumanji
this made me emotional...idk who you are but i really really really hope things get better. and im honestly proud of you for making the effort to get sober. im rooting for you!!!
btw i love the way you expressed your thoughts i really like the way you write
Holy shit I meant to respond to this 5 months ago but forgot and finally saw it when I came to re-read. I'm so sorry for the late reply!
I am so much better now! It's still a little hard sometimes mentally but it's not a hindrance to my everyday being anymore. Thank you again, so much. 
I hope life and all it comes with is good on your end 
Thank you so much, that means as much now as it did when I was really sick and wrote this :3
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