Where would U go from Here

Im currently in bed but it feels like a sanctuary. I feel like rekindling things with people I once knew. But its best to try and meet new people and share new fresh healthy experiences. My best friend is currently happy right now I can feel her aura from across the country shes beaming and having a great time, I hope he treats her the way she deserves to be treated cause shes been through a lot. Im still having mixed feelings about Dylan. I think maybe he did what he did on accident but I feel like he wanted us to be left with the anger he felt towards us as a broken family. Its natural to grieve over that stuff I think and hopefully it takes less time than I am planning on. I really do love listening to music in bed while I blog but sometimes I wanna punch myself in the face cause Im stupid. I like spinning around and my body starts to feel weird too. My limbs feel kind of glittery??? Maybe like crackling fireworks on my flesh it is a nice feeling. My teeth get cold so I usually chatter when Im coming up but it all hits at once so when it does ill come find you again.