THOSE DREAMS WON'T LET ME SLEEP

Well, I don't know if this is embarrassing to say, but you don't have those dreams where it is repeated almost every day that you already know how far to walk as if it were real life and at the same time it is a specific place in another country, For example in my case, supposedly I have a life in London, My age is approximately 24 years old (not in real life) and I'm in the 80s, the strange thing here is that nobody sees me on the streets, it is always night, Another dream is that I'm my age, my family and my real house but our life is SO different and it is like in the previous dream, it is also at night, at no time is it day, super bad or good things happen, when I say SUPER bad things I try to say that paranormal things usually happen in every way, but at the end of everthing I always wake up crying remembering those dreams feeling that I should be living there and not in this reality, I don't know what I'm worth....