Thinking about going full emo

So i used to look a lot more emo but as i got older i got lazy and i let my hair go back to its natural color, stopped wearing guy liner, and started dressing more "basic" for lack of a better word. I kinda wanna get back into looking super emo now that im old enough to change my appearance however i want but liiikkkkeeee i kinda enjoy the way ppl treat me now that i look like less of a dirtbag yk. also im so lazy and fitting a certain style is sooo much work. I was thinking of just not doing guyliner or getting piercings and just changing my hair to match my style in a subtle way + adding little emo elements to my looks while i transition back into the look. idk

Also now that i have an apartment to myself i wanna make it super dark and gothic but that can be a bit expensive and time consuming so that will be a slow process. any way ill keep updating on my emo journey.

Also Also i turn 19 soon! im not excited its giving me anxiety about aging and making me feel like a failure.