Im back !!! and im going to start posting my poetry here XD !!TRIGGER WARNING: blood and sh!!

The smell 

So pungent 

It entered my lungs and spread like a virus 

The orange emblems of the fire burn through my skin 

Leaving hot marks along my body

I can not feel them 

I am numb 

For the only thing I feel is my dull and aching heart 

Sore for the loss of you 

Sore for what once was 

This world is so cruel to take you away from me 

Take away my love 

You made me feel alive 

But I am without you 

Your body burns in front of me now 

You are nothing but hot ash 

The fire dies down 

The bright orange fades into a pale yellow 

I sit on the cold ground 

Twigs break under my weight as i settle in 

I put my hand to the warm ash 

I can still feel you 

Still feel your presence under my fingers 

I hear your voice in the wind 

Smell you in the air 

But you are nowhere to be found 

My eyes fill with tears as our memories fade away 

I can not bear to be without you 

You were stolen from me 

And I am now alone 

Left to face this cold and cruel world by myself 

You were my warmth 

Now all I feel is a frigid sadness 

I reach into my pocket and feel it 

The contours of the blade I am concealing feel sharp under my skin 

I take it out and hold in my hands 

I press my finger against the trigger and the blades flashes it self 

The moonlight glints and reflects off of it sharp surface 

Its blade entices me 

Pulling me in 

I press it against my forearm 

and press 

And press 

I can feel my fingers tense as the blade threatens to enter my body

I keep pressing 

Until 

The blade finally pierces my skin 

I feel a release and a diamond escapes 

Deep and red it drops onto the ground 

I flinch with pain 

A stinging sensation shoots through my arm 

I drag the blade up my arm watching a line being drawn across it

I am now open to the world 

To the elements around me 

And you are now here 

On the ground in front of me 

My hands shake as I cup you into them 

I bring you to my face 

The small specks of light and dark greys are mesmerising 

You are mesmerising 

When you were still here we spoke on being one 

Being combined and loving as one 

We are here now 

We can do this 

Be one 

I take one last look at you before I shove you into my wound 

My body jerked away from my wound 

An indescribable pain wafted over me making me nauseous 

My hand went numb 

A thousand fires erupted through my forearm 

I began to sweat 

The heat from my wound was unbearable 

But if this is what being with you means 

I can bear it for the rest of my life 

I need you 

I yearn for your love and to not have it 

To not have you 

I'd rather die 

And join you in the stars 

That is what I am waiting for 

The heat is fading 

I am fading 

But you are still here 

With me 

You will be with me in this realm when I join you in the next 

You are my everything 

I love you