Pathological Facade ramble

HSAFKNDJV ohmygod I love this song. I mean. I love all Ghost and Pals songs. But man, this one hit.

"A couple years ago, I was told that I would be a miracle--Something theoretical, I guess" HGHHGHFLKVJMV I felt this so hard as someone who's basically your standard burnt-out gifted kid. 

Ghhhhgj I'm very caffeinated right now and feel too hyper to properly put my feelings into words but MAN. "Who will I become? It's a bittersweetly never-ending phobia" I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA BE NOW!!!!! Now that I can hardly read a science article for a minute without feeling like my brain's fried, what's gonna happen to my old dreams of being a world-renowned astrophysicist ??? Or anything sciencey??? i don't know what I wanna ever be. I like drawing but I'd never want to make it into my job HFSDLJKMVLD

And I reallly really get how Teto keeps going back and forth between knowing everything was a lie and then "go on, praise me like a god". Sometimes I still feel like I did when I was in my delusion(?) of thinking I was gonna be the greatest, most intelligent, successful genius mad scientist ever

MANNN I'm gnona have to edit this later or something