July 9th, 2023

I'd say today was more than boring, so I'll keep this entry short. I woke up at 11, fresh out of vivid dreams of haunted cabinets, and spent my time reading fanfiction, because who doesn't? At almost 3, I headed out for another day of watching those cursed burgerking instruction videos. Did you know I spent 9 hours on those videos??? I hated them and I fear that I didn't retain everything I watched because I'm a visual learner. Ive been anxious that I'm going to start work not knowing how to properly do things because while I was told how to, I didn't get a visual instruction. So, that leaves me to now, laying in bed at almost 11pm, thinking about how horribly tomorrow can go because I'm so scared I'm not going to do things right, or that I'm going to bother people asking them for demonstration even though I sat through so much videos. I don't even know if I can blame my autism on this, or I'm just that bad at learning. I need to remember to just, breathe. I officially start work tomorrow at 4 through 10, and I will see how it goes. God only knows if I'll be lucky enough to where it goes fine. Maybe I should ask a deity for help, that's probably a good idea, but with my new job I don't know how much time I will have for witchcraft. I haven't even set up Loki's or Hekate's alter. I need to get on that..... Now I'm just rambling so I'll leave. 

- goodnight, signing out, dolly (who is right now an anxious mess)