idk

I've been thinking about how long can a person be truly in love or even in love absolutely, like... I spent a lot of time waiting for something to apear, something or better SOMEONE that can complete that hole that I can't even understand so far until I found it, until one day someone came to my life and changed completely 

now the actual problem is: how long will you be able to resist until you change?? I mean that... at what point are u going to continue romanticizing that love or obsession like not even sure if that person is really treating me like a normal gf

I just found that this person isn't able to make any loversplan''? idk how to call it but ima literally the opposite like... it is worth it to be with a person that absorb your energy(okey maybe not absorb but a person who makes your personality change cause im sure he wouldn't make that plans) like wtf I told him to make a picnic and watch sunset and he said nah im going to be bored bc I did it a long time and I got bored... I be like WTFFFF

idk dude that shit makes my head go crazy

(sorry for my English, im trying my best)