random vent post

school is fr so stressful though, i am so sick of college and just thinking of registering for the next semester makes me feel . . . sick. like, i barely get a break and then i have to go right back into it.

i wish i could at least have a few months to just . . . vibe. but it's next semester and then off to find a job when summer hits, assuming places around me are actually hiring this time around. 

i applied to like, 10 places a day last summer, and i got (1) interview. by the time i got a second one, school was about to start so it was pointless. i'm just now getting rejection emails about applications i put in in july, lmao. 

anyways, i really want to drop out. but there isn't anything else to do around here and my college is being paid for, so i might as well take advantage of that while i can. besides, i don't want to drag it out any longer than i have to by dropping out and then coming back and all that.

hoping finals aren't too brutal . . . ugh.