Turning the Big 4-0.

Well, it's happening. In four days, I finally turn the dreaded 40. I knew it was coming for a year now, but now it's finally upon me. I've been told not to make a big deal about it or treat it like it's the end of the world, but I just feel like I've wasted a lot of chances to do something with my life. And now that I'm 40, I feel like it's too late to change my fate, especially since I'm always going to be limited by Asperger's syndrome as well as my physical disabilities and my lack of financial independence. But I guess it's better to be 40 than the alternative: dead.

I just need to get this my off my chest, But I'm gonna try not to let it get to me too much. If there's a way to start fresh, hopefully I'll find it.