What I Need

For one to keep my mind occupied. If I'm awake that mutherfucker is working full steam ahead. I need to learn to control and focus that energy on positive and constructive outcomes. My mind will keep going even if my body won't. Cannabis is good at helping these issues.

I have literally killed myself working for others before. I felt like there was no way I can work a regular job again. I've concluded that nothing is impossible. It may very well be unlikely, but still possible.

I find that regularity and familiarity are huge comforts for me. But repetition can be a major detriment to my overall well-being.

How do I concentrate my efforts? Keep things in order as to not trigger anxiety and panic. Will I find a group of people that want to be friends enough to accommodate my different way of looking at things?