First blog ooooorr what???

 I technically already put this in my journal but I was watching this youtube video and this girl was talking about romanticizing yourself and your life. She brought up being able to be comfortable with being by yourself, which I mean I have no problem doing, I can do just about anything by myself and totally enjoy it. But then she started to talk about how sometimes that little voice in your head would basically stop you from doing the shit that you need to do and pursue in order to have a the life that you really want. Before hearing that, I never even thought I even had a little voice stearing me wrong, but apparentlllllyyy, I freggin do. Which is terrible but I'm glad that I know now and basically now, I'm telling it to fuck off because regardless I am going to go after the things I want to do and thriving in life in general. My problem was I wouldn't go after a job that I could 100% check off each and everyone one of the things on the list. And honestly that's not realistic, I have to learn somehow; so fuck it, I'm going for shit, I'm applying myself and THIS is really the part where I start to make a change in my life. We all have to start somewhere and I'm glad I was able to see that and start on the right foot to have life I want, because I deserve better & I want better for myself.