The Limerence

I’ve always considered myself a bit of a dreamer, but lately my ADHD has been on overdrive. 

I’m obsessed with something so incredibly unattainable. I know it’s unattainable, but it doesn’t make me want it any less. It’s been all I can think about for more than a month. It’s been in the back of my mind for years now. I have made my decisions and come to vehemently regret them. This is not usual for me. Being so close yet so far is making me a tad crazy. Heaven help my exhausted brain. Why did the universe throw me this curveball at the most inopportune moment? Why have I obsessively held onto it for the month following? I really need to just let things go and accept my life for the way that it is. 

I hate this.