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it's 1:11 am where i am rn im soooooooooo boredd. none of my friends are awake :< at least not the ones i actually wanna talk too. everyones so fake nowadays 🥱 i couldn't rly give a shit tho ion need them i have tons of other friends!! tmr there's a heat warning but i need to go to the mall😪 i  mean i don't have too but i got payed $40 for babysitting and allowence money and im saving up to buy scene stuff on aliexpress and since im 13 and don't have a credit card im just gonna go buy one of those visa gift cards. i figured out a way to buy 15 things w jus $40.60 :D i still need $53.36 tho for 9 more things ughh its fine thoo it's just if i bought stuff right now at this very moment then the fastest it could get here is august first and school for me starts again sept 6th or 7th so i have a month to get evrything b4 skl 😭 anddd i need to convince my mom to instead of going to the mall to buy clothes for next yr, to buy them online which the things i want comes down to ab $144 which isn't bad for clothes i just don't know if she'll say yes bcz its online and like usually she buys my new skl clothes but im scared she's gonna tell me to save up nd pay for it myselfffff. anyway tho im just starting to get into the scene style and i know im gonna get looks and comments next yr ugh im kinda scared but at the same time im just being myself. i hate how everyone says "be yourself!" then when u actually be yourself u get bullied like what.. people are so mean now it's crazy i literally only trust like 2 of my irl friends having my spacehey acc bcz they're like me and have it too (bcz i introduced it to them 😋) but like ughhh. anyway if ur still reading this thanks idk i just wanted to talk ab my life :D