First Entry

8:12 pm 

I'm thinking of starting to blogpost whenever I do drugs since I don't really have anyone to talk to usually and I tend to forget everything that happens in between. I have so many thoughts and I can't really catalogue them correctly sometimes it gets harder and harder to express things which was something I struggled with before. I have lost faith in the mere idea of hope and all of the dreams we use to self sooth as children. 

I guess I'll start by laying out my trip verbatim or in a timeline esq thing. Its about 8:15 now and I usually start things out by getting a large glass of water and unboxing the pills. I like the sound it makes when I push them out of the tinfoil bubble packaging. I'll go grab my water now and take a bathroom break. 

Its about 8:31 now and I just got back, I take each pill one by one followed with some water. 

At 8:36 I've taken all 30 pills which is about 900 mg of the drug. I take off some of my clothes take a few spins around my room, put on some music, turn on the heating pad and get into bed on my left side while stroking my hair. It will take some time before I start to feel anything at all but that's a good thing, best to let it all digest so I can avoid puking. 

I will update and publish the second part as I start to come up. 

Kat <3