Lonely Kitty

I've been so alone recently, I don't understand why everyone keeps leaving me behind. I wish i had a good lover who'd take care of me I need it. I don't wanna be hurt anymore. I recently got out of a bad relationship that was long term, he hurt me so much my body was covered in bruises. He threw rocks at me and hit me hard a lot. He cheated and led me on for so long I had no one I couldn't be around anyone, he made people fight me when we were apart and even after all that I gave him another chance. i wish i didn't he promised he'd change. He hit me so much more and he kept apologizing he said he'd fix his addiction he said he'd do better but why did some random girl in vr have more of his attention than me. He was so cruel and i stayed for so long and now I'm alone for good. It hurts so much to know that he never cared for me cheated and abused me and he's telling so many people that I was the bad person but I have proof of everything horrible he did and he has nothing on me because I never hurt him in any way... I'm in so much pain and I'm completely alone and embarrassed from him. 

where do I go I have no one to turn to. I just wish I was a little baby with a sweet man to really love me.

I'm completely alone though and I guess I will be for awhile. I might post more about this, im so drained and lonley.