love (ew)

i'm so in love with this person GOD but uh i actually don't know if  i love them or nah but ahahaGHGHDG he makes me laugh and i hate it so much uraghruhrg??? i hate how he always makes me happy it's so infuriating like come and kiss me already god fuckinh damn it anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaysss, i know he likes me too because it's so painfully obvious but i'm just playing an act and being all oblivious and stuff eheh but i really want him to make the first move and not me because i'm too lazy to do that, it hurts but i'll always wait for him