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feeling weird. I think my mom wants to hang out with me or something bc she asked if i wanted to go somewhere today and she was asking to chat even tho we never do that stuff. i feel uncomfortable and weird and tired. if anyone is reading this, ur probs like "lucky ur mom seems nice and wants to hang out w u" :/
i know she's just going to use me as a therapist again and talk about dad or other annoying things. every time i do try to "talk" to her, i can never ever get a word in. i never get to talk about anything regarding myself. not that i want to i guess. i dont have anything i want to tell her. still tho. dont say u wanna chat w me when u rly just want a therapist.
yesterday i heard her fighting w my dad and then thats when she came into my room asking if she wants to talk. like no. leave me alone i dont wanna hear about ur fights when i hear them going on all the time anyway.
it's the same thing w my dad. he comes home from work and starts complaining abt smth my mom did is the first thing he does.
soooo tiring and annoying. and they wonder why im always just in my room all the time. i have nothing to say to you guys and i dont wanna hear about all the fights and the same thing over and over. at least they arent yelling at me tho lol.
i dont have the mental or emotional capacity to deal with this all the time. ughhh i wish i could just live by myself. then maybe i can hang out in the living room.
im not even on my moms or dads side. idc anymore bruh. ill be my own side :/ the side that wants to be excluded from this mess and just root for my own mental sanity.
it sucks feeling alone in all this. i got no one to say this stuff to and my wrist hurts too much to write all this out in my journal like usual. i guess thats why i resort to writing everything out on the internet where no one will see but i still get that false impression that someone is reading and listening.
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SkyWolf θΔ
It sucks that your parents put you in the middle of their problems, and that's not okay. Their problems are not your responsibility.
I was placed in a similar place when I was young, my mother constantly inquired to me about her abusive boyfriends. To a degree she needed the help, I was okay with providing - it didn't necessarily feel like something I was doing all the time. But it was a lot to expect of someone so young.
Placing kids and young adults into these roles is not healthy for anyone. Even if a child is willing, is it really a smart idea to ask the LESS experienced person for advice? A therapist (or hell, even another adult such as a friend) has more capacity, knowledge, experience, or other qualities that make them far more suitable.
Let your kids grow up, talk to them about your issues but don't place the burden of parsing these things on to them.
PS: please look up 'Triangulation', make sure your parents arent using this relationship tactic on you!