toxic (a poem)

toxic 

what is toxic?

toxic is my love for you.

toxic is how pervasive you were for me 

how I would do anything to keep you out of my head no matter what drug or bad thing it was 

toxic is if you hit me or say the most profound things to me

I would still love you 

toxic is if my whole world was ending I would come to you in a heartbeat 

and you would still not care 

toxic is also my hate for you. 

toxic is how much we despise each other for ruining every part of each other lives.

toxic is you watching me scream and cry begging you to stay but.

you do not care.

toxic is how much I despise you for taking my innocence.

toxic is how sick I feel hearing your name.

toxic is me and you.