my gap year

ok so i graduated in 2022 from highschool. i went to a private highschool for around one and a half years and did homeschool for the rest of it. i ended up deciding to take a gap year before trying to go to college to get a job, a drivers license, and to just chill out.

heres the thing... i never ended up getting a drivers license or a job, and quite frankly i have no desire to go to college at the time being. i still live with my parents [wich was the plan anyways] and i am nowhere near ready to move out.

during the summer of last year, i met some of my friends through a roblox game, and through one of them i met another group of friends. we hung out all the time, since we were online friends it was easier to. we did a lot of rp that ranged from horror to fantasy. it was great.

in around november - december we had to deal with one of our friends turning into a creep [im not going into specific details though we kicked them out of the friend group and cut contact with them]

in january i met a man who is now my boyfriend through an adult discord server. at that point he was dating his ex, whom we found out soon after they broke up that she was cheating on him with four other guys.

in around november my mom's cancer got worse, and my dad's bipolar turned destructive for all my family, and around january my dad was kicked out for the next few months.

now its july, my dad is back, and its a bit less tense than it was before.

my sister and i are both on antidepressants, and my mom is trying to help us find professional help for our depression and anxiety as well.

life aint perfect, but its going okish at the moment.

UPDATE

i broke up with my boyfriend because he turned out to be a creep. that was in august.

now its september, about 24 hours before i turn 20. and uhhh. not much else has changed. my antidepressants were taken up a notch so-

UPDATE pt2 [as of January 14, 2024]

I have really terrible spending habits. any money I get [wich I really only get money for my birthday, holidays and allowance] I spend, and I don't typically have more than $20 or $30 dollars in my account. i don't have a job, and I'm still living with my parents, however i am really comfy atm and i don't plan on leaving anytime soon. i know it might sound lazy, but honestly with everything that's been happening [from my depression to my mom's cancer to some fights that happened between some friends] i honestly don't see myself being mentally able to leave any time soon.