hope you had a really good time

been bouncing some stuff around in my head as of late. a lot of things happening, so few that i can share with anyone who'll actually understand. it's been that way for years now. it looks like i'm just spiralling for no reason, sawing my own leg off -- no one sees the bear trap, the pitfall except for her, and i fear i keep dragging her down or getting her stuck with me.

i'm trying to do better for her. i can't let myself slip again - i'm getting too old to have so little self control. the effects of living in a home where no one wanted you to grow up, so they kept cutting off your legs for you just so you wouldn't be able to walk without asking for help. i resent that notion.

you can only blame your problems on the world for so long, before it all becomes the same old song after all. 

i'll leave you all with this. 

til next time frenz

xofrnk