confession/rant/vent

uhh general tw for like @bus3 and violence

i've found myself for the past few years becoming progressively more and more angry and violent and i'm not sure what to do about it. i mean, im just reacting to all of the shitty things in my life but i've been getting in more and more fights. i beat the shit out of a kid in my class because he sat on me. i mean he deserved it but still. my mom thinks i'm going insane. i even drew blood and as dumb as this sounds it kinda felt good kicking his ass. maybe it's because i cant find affection so i resort to violence? i've just stopped caring about people who irritate me. my mom calls me ungrateful and and vulgar. i hate her. i remember getting in the car and just zoning out in the back with blood on my shoes. i'm not sure if i should be proud or concerned, but i don't really care at this point.