The man in the sky

I don't really know how to feel about him. I mean he might exist? But how could I or anyone ever know. He supposed solve all our problems but can he? 

The other day a kid got presented at our church, his family talked about how he got really sick when he was younger and almost died. Then said that they prayed so much that they hallucinated seeing our prophet and after the kid was fine again and wasn't sick anymore. I thought it was really cool that something like that could happen to someone but did I believe it was god? I don't know. Maybe? A lot of things happen that could be an act of God.

 I got hit by a bus 2 years ago and survived. Do I think it was god? No. But my most of family did think it was him and made me go to church that day to pray to God that I was alive. It's not I got really hurt or anything I mean I was the one how reacted quickly so didn't get hurt. But they didn't understand that and still thank God that I'm alive even though I was the one who saved myself. 

Still don't really know how to feel about him, not that I hate him or people who follow that path of God. I'm just not sure if that's what I really want to do in life. To follow a faceless man have to have  every decision pass by him and to make sure its the right one. I'm not sure at all and my parents are really antsy on me making my mind even if I already told them that I was going to follow god.

At least he gives me something to do on Sundays.