Idk

I constantly feel worried about the future. It's been so bad this past year that I have been stuck in a perpetual (creative) slump. I used to be extremely creative and able to do things on a whim. Now, all I feel like doing is staring at my phone all day (even if it bores me or makes me feel unwell). School is the only thing that keeps me off of my phone. When I'm not at school, the addiction comes back. 2020 ruined me, as did people constantly pressuring me to head into the future right away. I miss being able to write, paint, draw, and read for days on end. I miss not constantly worrying about the future. I don't want anything to do with college, a job, or a car. I'd rather live on another planet than step foot into a workplace. Work sounds so damn boring. I don't want my life to consist of working constantly until I am really old. Please tell me someone else feels this way. I sometimes feel so alone because so many of my peers seem ready and even excited to get a job or go to college. I'm not ready for any of it.