This summer break so far..

RRARAARRAAAGGHHH

IT'S JUST SO FUCKING FRUSTRATING THAT ALL I DO IS BEING LOCKED UP IN MY BEDROOM SWITCHING FROM DOING PHONE, READING THAT MANWHA ALL MORNING, THEN SHOWERING, HAVING A LITTLE AFTERNOON MEAL (like a wrap with spicy frozen chciken or a burger), DOING WHATEVER ON MY COMPUTER, LISTENING TO A LITTLE MUSIC, NOT REALIZING HOW FAST TIME PASSES, NOT EATING TONIGHT THEN SLEEPING.

I used to dream of theses days when i was in school.. Being mostly home-alone.. Doing whatever i please.. BUT NOW IT JUST FEELS LIKE HELL

And before you tell me "go outside! go out with some friends! visit some colleges!"

GO OUTSIDE??? TO GO WHERE??? I CAN'T EVEN TAKE THE DAMN BUS TO GO SOMEWHERE (i'm thirteen (and a half)) AND I DON'T EVEN A SINGLE EURO (european money if you didn't know!), WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO WHEN OUTSIDE??? TAKE A WALK?? I ASSURE YOU WHEN YOU'VE TOOK A WALK ATLEAST THREE TIMES IT GETS BORING AND REPETITVE. Oh yeah and i don't have a backyard, i live in an appartment!

Then for the "go out with some friends!"

look.. i do have friends. im not such a loser but.. MOST OF THEM LIVE SOOO FUCKING FAR AWAY we do have one event planned though but it's IN SOOO LOOOONNG

The thing that i do not understand about all that is that my days are so fast yet slow. I just don't know how to really explain it...